marti maraschino

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Saturday, July 10, 2004

8:41PM - i need help

i need such help.. im stuck.. i dont know what to do.. im fat.. soo fat.. i cant even tell you... ive been eating 400 cals and working out everyday an hour.. nothing... i gained 2 lbs.. i cant do this.. i just want to starve.. i never feel the growl or hunger.. i want that hunger.. whats wrong with me.. how come i dont feel the hunger... im just going to stop eating all together... please help

Current mood: depressed

Current music: not beleive anything- yellowcard

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Thursday, July 8, 2004

Thursday, June 10, 2004

5:26PM - ahaaaaa

so i've figured out that everyone around us that begins to lecture is really just in awe at the amount of control and power we have. let's face it, if denying food and controlling what we put in our mouths was so easy, no one would have weight problems. right? im reminded of this everytime someone says you should eat something, or you were getting a little too thin back then... they wish they had this control and willpower.

heehee.. sorry for the vent... umm girl power. *giggle*

marti

Current mood: contemplative

Current music: way away---yellowcard

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